Day 1 Challenges

Wow, I’m just noticing myself… Wanting to eat and eat shit. Already bought 2 small chip packets and feasting now on my Bakery biscuits (that I contemplated not bringing, imaging I wouldn’t crave junk! – haha!)

Today was tough… Felt well rested and woke up early at 5am for my sitting and some exercises, and then jotted down some ideas for the day. But oh shit, this is Indian-style at its best! We were “supposed” to start at 9.30am, but people were still trickling in at 10.45am…!

And people were distracted and moving all over the place – cell phones, organizing tea and lunch, toilet visits, baby running about – and a totally mixed group. We were 11 in all, ranging from a 9th grader to participants in their late 30’s and early 40’s (guestimating…), and from total beginners to some who have been at it longer than I have! Well…

And I missed this sense of real depth and concentration. I missed not having the language (we translated into Hindi – and sometimes Marathi). I wasn’t sure how to gauge where people were at, if they were interested or not, learning or not, following or not, bored or not – wow…! And co-creation, self-responsibility and leadership are tough challenges here… Phew…

I have a lot to learn…

I’m beat. I’m a bit feeling-dead too – nothing much there. It’s just all so different, so unfamiliar (I mean, familiar, to be expected – all of it – the apartment I’m living in, everything, but still unfamiliar in the sense of “where do I find my rhythm, my zone within this context”).

But I did catch myself thinking, “No, you’re not gonna get away with this. You better start counting your grati-berts… This has got to be such a rich opportunity – don’t miss out on it…”

But I’m too tired… Maybe tomorrow morning…

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